Life is a maze and love is a riddle…

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I’m just a little bit caught in the middle

Life is a maze and love is a riddle
I don’t know where to go I can’t do it alone I’ve tried
And I don’t know why

Slow it down
Make it stop–
Or else my heart is going to pop
‘Cause it’s too much
Yeah, it’s a lot
To be something I’m not

I’m a fool
Out of love
‘Cause I just can’t get enough

I’m just a little bit caught in the middle
Life is a maze and love is a riddle
I don’t know where to go I can’t do it alone I’ve tried
And I don’t know why

I am just a little girl lost in the moment
I’m so scared but I don’t show it
I can’t figure it out
It’s bringing me down I know
I’ve got to let it go
And just enjoy the show

The sun is hot
In the sky
Just like a giant spotlight
The people follow the signs
And synchronize in time
It’s a joke
Nobody knows
They’ve got a ticket to that show
Yeah

I’m just a little bit caught in the middle
Life is a maze and love is a riddle
I dont know where to go, can’t do it alone I’ve tried
And I don’t know why

I am just a little girl lost in the moment
I’m so scared but I don’t show it
I can’t figure it out
It’s bringing me down I know
I’ve got to let it go
And just enjoy the show oh oh oh

Just enjoy the show oh oh oh

I’m just a little bit caught in the middle
Life is a maze and love is a riddle
I dont know where to go I can’t do it alone I’ve tried
And I don’t know why

I am just a little girl lost in the moment
I’m so scared but I don’t show it
I can’t figure it out
It’s bringing me down I know
I’ve got to let it go
And just enjoy the show oh oh oh

Just enjoy the show

dum de dum
dudum de dum

Just enjoy the show

dum de dum
dudum de dum

Just enjoy the show

I want my money back
I want my money back
I want my money back

Just enjoy the show

I want my money back
I want my money back
I want my money back

Just enjoy the show

 

not everything stays forever…

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a few phrases I read today that got me thinking…

“It’s true that not everything stays forever, but there are some things you’d fight for, so you can have them just a little longer.”

“It’s really hard to decide when you’re too tired to hold on, but you’re too in love to let go.”.

“Just because we don’t talk doesn’t mean I don’t think about you. I’m just trying to distance myself because I know I can’t have you.”

And still feeling so sad, seems like the feeling will never go away… but it will eventually and time will help, even if it seems that it wont.

’till I come back again

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Oh Lover, hold on

’till I come back again
For these arms are growin’ tired,
And my tales are wearing thin

If you’re patient I will surprise,
When you wake up i’ll have come

All the anger will settle down 
And we’ll go do all the things we should have done 

Yes I remember what we said
As we lay down to bed
I’ll be here if you will only come back home

Oh lover, i’m lost 
Because the road i’ve chosen beckens me away 

Oh lover, don’t you rome
Now i’m fighting words I never thought i’d say

But I remember what we said
As we lay down to bed
I’ll forgive you oh
If you just come back home

Hmmm mmmm
Hmmmm mmmm

Oh lover, I’m old
You’ll be out there and be thinking just of me

And I will find you down the road
And will return back home to where we’re meant to be

’cause I remember what we said
As we lay down to bed
We’ll be back soon as we make history.

 

Planning next destination…

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Beautiful Miami wasn’t easy, as someone once said, what doesn’t kill you only makes you stronger.

I leave with plently of  memories and no regrets. I’ve met great people, made amazing friends and one that took a part of my heart with him (you will be in my thoughts for a long time…)

Nothing is forever and my time here is done… maybe a few months in Barcelona or perhaps NY, maybe go back home for some time, I don’t know yet, so far planning my next move with no rush.

Until then I’ll enjoy the last months of my stay, maybe a little travel around the state.

Me haces falta

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Te amo mi amor me haces falta, cariño te extraño,
Quisiera tenerte a mi lado pero estas tan lejos
Necesito tu amor y ese dulce sabor de tus besos
Cuando escuchando nuestra canción, la nostalgia invade el corazón
Mi sonrisa se ahoga en el mar de tristeza que siento

Te amo mi amor me haces falta, cariño quisiera
Que estuvieras conmigo como estas en mi pensamiento
Cuando muero por sentir de nuevo el olor de tu cuerpo
Cuando una flor me habla de tu amor
Cuando escucho en el viento tu voz
Cuando al mirar tu foto el tiempo se detiene un momento

Quisiera tenerte a mi lado pero estas tan lejos
Te extraño y me siento tan solo me faltan tus besos
Si vieras la falta que me hace el calor de tu cuerpo
Tocarte llenarme de ti acurrucarme en tu pecho

Quisiera volar a tu lado más sé que no puedo
Debo imaginarte y llenar el vacío que yo tengo
Pero sabes bien que hasta que puedas volver te espero
Porque sobre todas las cosas del mundo te quiero

Quisiera tenerte a mi lado pero estas tan lejos
Te extraño y me siento tan solo me faltan tus besos
Si vieras la falta que me hace el calor de tu cuerpo
Tocarte llenarme de ti acurrucarme en tu pecho

Quisiera volar a tu lado más sé que no puedo
Debo imaginarte y llenar el vacío que yo tengo
Pero sabes bien que hasta que puedas volver te espero
Porque sobre todas las cosas del mundo te quiero

 

Me haces falta mi amor, me haces falta.

 

[by Fredy Alma]

For that one moment…

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“And in that one moment, you don’t seem to think.
You don’t think of your best friend, who is exactly like you.
You don’t think about how much your family loves you.
Or even how much you love your family.
You don’t think of how there’s a giant piece of cake waiting for you in the fridge,
Or even how that movie you’ve been wanting to see is coming out in 3 days.
You don’t think of that episode of your favorite show is starting, which you never miss,
You don’t think about how much you enjoy your time alone,
And you don’t seem to be able to remember all the good times you’ve had with friends.
It doesn’t cross you mind, that your favorite team just won the game;
Or even that perhaps it’ll rain tonight, and you love the smell of the air when it rained next morning.
But you don’t think of any of that.
For that one moment, all you can think of, is that nothing is ever going to be alright again.”

wise words, words, words…

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“Have you ever wondered which hurts the most: saying something and wishing you had not, or saying nothing, and wishing you had?”

 

“I’m trying really hard not to cry over you because every tear is just one more reminder that I don’t know how to let you go. ”

 

“People will forget what you said. People will forget what you did. But people will never forget how you made them feel. “

 

Updates …

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August 2011 - Mexico, great time with the family, this time we actually had some vacation time all together, I didn’t have chance to go to LA and visit my friends. Although I enjoy so much my stay with the family, I wanted to come back so bad, thinking it would be a great rest of the month, sadly wasn’t the case, anyhow, things happen, life goes on even when it seems that it won’t (so hard when you still have hope even knowing that won’t happen, I miss you so much). Lucky for me have a group of friends that support me in the hard times and reassure me how good it will be after the storm passes. Bittersweet and sad month.

July 2011 - New York City, happy month.

June 2011 - happy/melancholic month.

May 2011 - Domincan Republic

April 2011 – my birthday, no big party, no cake. but great company, no visiting my family in mexico either.

March 2011 – Nassau, Bahamas

February 2011 – Guatemala, great place

Don’t you remember

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When will I see you again?
You left with no goodbye, not a single word was said,
No final kiss to seal any seams,
I had no idea of the state we were in,

I know I have a fickle heart and bitterness,
And a wandering eye, and a heaviness in my head,

But don’t you remember?
Don’t you remember?
The reason you loved me before,
Baby, please remember me once more,

When was the last time you thought of me?
Or have you completely erased me from your memory?
I often think about where I went wrong,
The more I do, the less I know,

But I know I have a fickle heart and bitterness,
And a wandering eye, and a heaviness in my head,

But don’t you remember?
Don’t you remember?
The reason you loved me before,
Baby, please remember me once more,

Gave you the space so you could breathe,
I kept my distance so you would be free,
And hope that you find the missing piece,
To bring you back to me,

Why don’t you remember?
Don’t you remember?
The reason you loved me before,
Baby, please remember me once more,

When will I see you again?

Sad

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There are a lot of things I wanted to say instead we know what happened. Now, nothing I can do will change that and for that I am deeply sorry.

“Good things don’t end unless they end badly”.

Better days will come and everything will be ok eventually, just feeling very sad right now that it seems that it wont.

Take it all

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Didn’t I give it all?
Tried my best,
Gave you everything I had,
Everything and no less,
Didn’t I do it right?
Did I let you down?

Maybe you got too use to,
Having me around,
Still, how can you walk away,
From all my tears?
It’s gonna be an empty road,
Without me right here,

But go on and take it,
Take it all with you,
Don’t look back,
At this crumbling fool,
Just take it all,
With my love,
Take it all,
With my love,

Maybe I should leave,
To help you see,
Nothing is better than this,
And this is everything we need,
So is it over?
Is this really it?
You’re giving up so easily,
I thought you loved me more than this,

But go on, go on and take it,
Take it all with you,
Don’t look back,
At this crumbling fool,
Just take it all,
With my love,
Take it all,
With my love,

I will change if I must,
Slow it down and bring it home,
I will adjust,
Oh, if only,
If only you knew,
Everything I do,
Is for you,

But go on, go on and take it,
Take it all with you,
Don’t look back,
At this crumbling fool,
Just take it,
Take it all with you,
Don’t look back,
At this crumbling fool,
Just take it all,
With my love,
Take it all,
With my love,
Take it all,
With my love.

NYC

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So far, enjoying my time in NYC. So many things to do walking distance and at anytime of the day. No wonder is called the city that never sleeps. Amazing.

Curious Facts in NYC:
It’s ilegal to run out of gas.
Very few Starbucks have power outlets available for customers
You have to always carry flats and heels in a purse due to all the walking involved.

Make you feel my love

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Make you feel my love

When the rain
Is blowing in your face
And the whole world
Is on your case
I could offer you
A warm embrace
To make you feel my love

When the evening shadows
And the stars appear
And there is no one there
To dry your tears
I could hold you
For a million years
To make you feel my love

I know you
Haven’t made
Your mind up yet
But I would never
Do you wrong
I’ve known it
From the moment
That we met
No doubt in my mind
Where you belong

I’d go hungry
I’d go black and blue
I’d go crawling
Down the avenue
No, there’s nothing
That I wouldn’t do
To make you feel my love.

The storms are raging
On the rolling sea
And on the highway of regret
Though winds of change
Are throwing wild and free
You ain’t seen nothing
Like me yet

I could make you happy
Make your dreams come true
Nothing that I wouldn’t do
Go to the ends
Of the Earth for you
To make you feel my love

I love this song… thank you for introducing me to this great singer, this song is for you.

Dominican Republic

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Dominican Republic was amazing, not only the place but the company. Enjoyed very much this trip!.

Food, people, culture, life style, vegetation, from Mango to Cocoa trees… so rich! I would definitely do it again.

What Will Matter

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“For each of us eventually, whether we are ready or not, someday it will all come to an end.
There will be no more sunrises, no minutes, hours or days.
All the things you collected, whether treasured or forgotten, will pass to someone else.
Your wealth, fame and temporal power will shrivel to irrelevance.
It will not matter what you owned or owed.
Your grudges, resentments, frustrations, and jealousies will finally disappear.
So, too, your hopes, ambitions, plans, and to-do lists will expire.
The wins and losses that once seemed so important will fade away.
It won’t matter where you came from, or on what side of the tracks you lived, at the end.
It won’t matter whether you were beautiful or brilliant
Even your gender and skin color will be irrelevant.
So what will matter? How will the value of your days be measured?
What will matter is not what you bought, but what you built; not what you got, but what you gave.
What will matter is not your success, but your significance.
What will matter is not what you learned, but what you taught.
What will matter is every act of integrity, compassion, courage or sacrifice that enriched, empowered or encouraged others to emulate your example.
What will matter is not your competence, but your character.
What will matter is not how many people you knew, but how many will feel a lasting loss when you’re gone.
What will matter is not your memories, but the memories that live in those who loved you.
What will matter is how long you will be remembered, by whom and for what.
Living a life that matters doesn’t happen by accident. It’s not a matter of circumstance but of choice.
Choose to live a life that matters. “
by Michael Josephson


Guatemala!

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My stay in Guatemala has been incredible!, there are so many places to go and so little time…

Volcanoes, Piramids, Lakes, black sand beaches, the places I’ve visited were Panajachetl, San Pedro, Atitlan, Flores, Tikal, Antigua…

I am ready to come back again.

Cartagena, Colombia

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The trip overall was great, history of the city was amazing, learned a lot about it, beaches were pretty much like the ones here Miami, we stayed on the “Old downtown” as locals call it.

Besides the fact that I got sick, the days before were wonderful.

I’ll update this as soon as I make some time later at night.

Updates …

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February 2010 - Studying for Certifications this month and having a trip to Guatemala for work. Coming back looking forward to spend some Valentine’s Day <3 time! (or maybe belated Valentine’s but will celebrate for sure). Getting my car on this month (I hope). Plans for the year’s vacation, March want to do a cruise to the Caribbean, same month bringing parents to Miami, April going to my hometown, May cruise with girlfriends… So far is where I am at.

January 2010 - Got my wisdom tooth removed, after a year of dwelling about it!. Anyhow this is first time of my stay in Miami that I am happy to come back! Has been a very productive month a lot of things going on, hopefully all for good, excited with my trip to Colombia (passport checked!), have met very interesting people that I would like to know more, blessed to have them in my life. The book of the month,
“7 habits Of Highly Effective People” (I really need to read this one) , another book a friend of mine recommended me “The Art of War”, and for last but not least I am getting “Confessions of an Ugly Step Sister” from Gregory Maguire. Can’t wait!, year looking bright :) .

December 2010 - Went to Big Bear, CA, beautiful landscapes, huge pines, xma’s decoration everywhere and super cold. Cabin we got was cozy and warm, after enjoying some of the attractions, we got to see snow and do some sliding, next time I will skiboard all over the place. And of course month of the year to spend time with the family, after all the crazy visits, there is no place like home, always thankful to be able to travel back.  Movies of the year: Avatar, Inception, Shutter Island.

November 2010 - Ok, Thanksgiving is here again only this time I have a Miami family to celebrate with, things haven’t been better and I am happy that I have some friends to enjoy this time, a Mexican friend from Orlando came to visit me and spent time and party in Miami, had to show him how we roll! :P exhausting but good.

October 2010 - I was home for quite sometime this time, had a chance to go to LA “Halloween Horror Nights”, it wasn’t that scary (: O). Ready for Halloween, my costume: Ring Master! yeah.

September 2010 - Going home, as always had a blast in Ensenada for my parent’s birthday and as every trip visit my good friends in LA. Among other cities, I visited Temecula, CA. awesome vineyards the perfect month of the year to see the beauty of the landscapes, great visit. Promoting among my friends a few of my dad’s songs of course I Love them, is my dad hope the rest like them as much as I do.

August 2010 – This month I have been doing a lot of activities, some of them include costume parties, house gatherings, concerts, sailing, rock climbing, everglades, shark valley, painting and of course reading and swimming.

July 2010 – Settled finally with a nice glass-top desk for work .Had some Orlando time, spent a whole weekend with my dearest friends from San Diego-Miami , visited Disneyworld and ate a super authentic home made Puerto Rican food. After a few days gathered at a friend’s house, Miami folks got to experience what a homemade Mexican salsa tastes like!, good times. Sadly for me got bad news from home, a member of my family passed away, nothing I could do about it :( felt helpless and powerless .  New trilogy books “Millennium”…

June 2010 – Finally set in the new apartment got a nice white couch and a few things for my new “home”. I am excited for everything. I have been slowly making a few good friends…

May 2010 – Back from home and ready to find a new place this month, after looking all over around found a nice, cozy one to move to. Painting the old one, and packing all my things, I couldn’t believe how much work involves moving everything I had (which is not much) !!! Gladly for me had a few friends that helped me. The end of this month was a bit rough for me but nothing I couldn’t handle. Now new place, new memories :) , it’s all good.

Enjoying life!

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Holidays around the corner!

Another year passes by and I’m realizing more and more how lucky I am to have so many people that loves me and who I love around. Next year is looking super bright.

This year couldn’t have a better ending,

  • November, having Thanksgiving with my Miami friends and my dear Mexican friend that is coming to visit.
  • December, going home to Mexico to spent time with my family but before trip to San Francisco LA, BIG BEAR!!! (Snow!!!), San Diego and enjoy some time with friends.
  • January, coming back to Miami and starting a new year full of extraordinary experiences, first one in Cartagena, Colombia!

 

I am excited, just booked all my trips and finishing my plans for these following months. Looking forward to them.

Busy bee

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I have been so busy lately that I haven’t had a chance to write about my trips and my recent activities!. I’ll post ‘em soon!…

Last one - Pumpkin Carving Party!… below my Jason/Hannibal carved design