There has been changes in my life recently… I changed my job with it, my residency I moved from LA to Miami. which it is a completely different place, I have been here for almost 3 months now and I haven’t find my comfortable zone yet, work is different, people is different and will have to adapt sooner or later, don’t know how long will be here but I hope it’s enough, enough for what? I don’t know 
… yet.
Changes…
Jose Jose – He renunciado a ti.
He renunciado a ti, definitivamente
he renunciado a ti, y esta vez para siempre
Te habras fijado que no te busco
que pasa el tiempo y no voy por tu casa.
que no me ves por los sitios que pasas
he renunciado a ti
he renunciado a ti.
Porque es pura fantasia nuestro amor
ilusiones que se borran con el tiempo
porque es tanta la distancia entre los dos
que es dificil que podamos comprendernos.
He renunciado a ti, como hace el mendigo
ante el juguete caro, que llevaria a su hijo
como las aves a las estrellas
como renuncia a ser flor lo que es hierba
y cualquier hombre a volver a ser ninio
he renunciado a ti
he renunciado a ti.
Updates!…
Has been a long time since the last time I wrote here. A lot of things have happened, but I will list the ones that I remember for now.
November 2008, went to Las Vegas for the first time with my sister, our first trip together by ourselves, it was good times, had coffee from every hotel we visited.
December 2008, went home for two weeks for the holidays, had a reunion with university colleagues.
January 2009, my first anniversary in LA, I’ve realized how much I have grown in the past year and I was surprisingly happy to be back to my apartment. I stopped resisting to glasses. Trying to go to bellydance classes.
February 2009, went to Las Vegas for my second time to celebrate one of my friends birthday, saw snow for the first time!, said goodbye to some friends that moved on, took myself the decision to move on, seek for new adventures in other cities. Went to my frist yoga class, which is hard.
March 2009, understanding slowly that everyone eventually will move on, even me, and that we have to quick adapt to new environments and people.
This year is looking good.
Halloween day!
I celebrated my first halloween in the US, it is a huge celebration over here, so I decided to dress up even for work.
The winner takes all, Meryl Streep in Mamma Mia!
I don’t wanna talk
About things we’ve gone through
Though it’s hurting me
Now it’s history
I’ve played all my cards
And that’s what you’ve done too
Nothing more to say
No more ace to play
The winner takes it all
The loser standing small
Beside the victory
That’s her destiny
I was in your arms
Thinking I belonged there
I figured it made sense
Building me a fence
Building me a home
Thinking I’d be strong there
But I was a fool
Playing by the rules
The gods may throw a dice
Their minds as cold as ice
And someone way down here
Loses someone dear
The winner takes it all
The loser has to fall
It’s simple and it’s plain
Why should I complain?
But tell me does she kiss
Like I used to kiss you?
Does it feel the same
When she calls your name?
Somewhere deep inside
You must know I miss you
But what can I say?
Rules must be obeyed
The judges will decide
The likes of me abide
Spectators of the show
Always staying low
The game is on again
A lover or a friend
A big thing or a small
The winner takes it all
I don’t wanna talk
‘Cause it makes me feel sad
And I understand
You’ve come to shake my hand
I apologize
If it makes you feel bad
Seeing me so tense
No self-confidence
But you see
The winner takes it all
The winner takes it all
The game is on again
A lover or a friend
A big thing or a small
The winner takes it all
The winner takes it all
- I loved it Definately will see it again!!!.
AWBW – “The monster in me”
Another episode in the AWBW open house past August 6th, the theme “The Monster in Me” exhibit.
These paints show how their truly feelings are with art they get to express what with words they can just not say, what it is in their minds, in their hearts. Wacthing the paints you get to open a window into their world and how using Arit they can finally open their emotions and release all the bad energy/regrets/feelings/pain they have inside.
Here are some of the drawings in the exhibit (The last one broke my heart, Can you imagine a little kid not understanding what it is happening to him/her?)
This is just so frustrating but at the same time motivating to keep up the work and feel grateful for all what we have and taking the opportunity that it has been given to help kids and women that had been abused in any way and how these shelters from asociations like AWBW (http://www.awbw.org) have been given them hope to continue with their life.
It was very touching and encouraging, definitely will keep supporting the association even if I am only a volunteer for now.
Broken - Shelly Delter
I will bite your head - Anonymous
I am sorry for being a monster - Maria
Why daddy? - Stephanie
Juevebes in LA
Past thrusday we had a happy hour from work, the second one since I am here. The theme was Lakers vs Celtics game. Unfortunately Lakers lost that game. No one took pictures (geez I need a camera). Anayways here are some pictures from the first Juevebes, one of the girls had a camera.
Visiting Friends
I have some friends that from time to time I visit now. A girl that lives here in LA with her husband and a coworker and his wife.
Past friday I went to visit my coworker, his wife and their 2 lovely kids.
This picture is from last year on a visit I did to LA.
Dodger’s game
A couple of weeks ago went to my first baseball game, it was okay, a lot of people and everything super expensive!!! anyways Dodgers won. See below some pictures from the day.
Early mornings, Late days, Long nights
I am planning to find a place where I can swim during the morning or nights, I love to swim but somehow I haven’t during the past few months that I am here.
Lately I’ve been adapting myself completely to the new city. I do not complain anymore about the beautiful things I have and my days at the office have become shorter than before since I have more activities during the week: movies, reading, dinner out, walks, shopping and some bars.
Now I have a few nice friends, one of them is coming back from his long vacations (hometown) he is here next week, other one which I see often, we had been discovering places from LA.
I’ve been busy almost every night (some of them really late), few times by myself which it’s great because I love being rounded by people.
Well hope more exciting things come by.
Art in the afternoon – AWBW
A window between worlds – Art in the afternoon event
This weekend was special, I did some community work even though i was exhausted at the end of the day, it was joyful.
Goal was $22k - Event was a complete success raised over $25k.
My Assigment: Children’s area.
9:00 am – 11:00 am A little bit lost about what I was going to do, still not too confident to talk with everyone, girls very friendly and finally one of the coordinators guide me pretty well of what I should do.
11:00 am – 12:00 pm More comfortable, by this time I had already some people to talk with. Preparing everything for the arrival of our guests and afining final details.
12:00 pm – 4:00 pm Event took place, a lot of people, testimonials, workshops, art pieces for sale, plenty of food. Talked with the people, with the kids, ate a loooooot and had really good time over there. I was the balloon maker too!
4:00 pm – 5:00 pm Cleaning time!
Here are some pictures from that day.
Chenoa – Contigo o sin ti
Si es error mentir, los dos, peor es la verdad
Que en fin tu y yo creíamos podernos amar
Y así sin miedo día a día lo seriamos más ya no, no más
Quiero escapar donde el aire este mas limpio, donde brille el sol
Que alguien pueda comprenderme donde sienta pasión
En un sitio donde estalle el color
Y así poder decir que yo trate de encontrar el amor
No puedo ya vivir contigo ni sin ti
Gloria y esclavitud locura sin fin
Todo ese amor que te di a donde ira
A un rincón desconocido no hay calor
Donde calla el sentimiento
Donde parte en dos el corazón
Yo me voy, te vas sufriendo
Lo que nunca ha debido empezar ya no, no más
Quiero escapar donde el aire este mas limpio, donde brille el sol
Que alguien pueda comprenderme donde sienta pasión
En un sitio donde estalle el color
Y así poder decir que yo trate de encontrar el amor
No puedo ya vivir contigo ni sin ti
Gloria y esclavitud locura sin fin
Todo ese amor que te di a donde ira
A un rincón desconocido no hay calor
Donde calla el sentimiento
Donde parte en dos el corazón
No puedo ya vivir contigo ni sin ti
Gloria y esclavitud locura sin fin
Todo ese amor que te di a donde ira
A un rincón desconocido no hay calor
Donde calla el sentimiento
Donde parte en dos
Todo ese amor que te di a donde ira
A un rincón desconocido no hay calor
Donde calla el sentimiento
Donde parte en dos el corazón
El corazón
25th Birthday
I had a wonderful day, even though I am in a different city, people from here and people from home showed me some love!.
First in the morning I got to work and I had my cubicle full of balloons and lot of candies all around (ate too much candies yesterday)! it was awesome, I felt really cared and loved.
I received plenty emails with beautiful messages and some e-cards. One of those emails was from my mom, I apreciate the effort she made to write and email since she is a newbie in computer’s world. My older sister wrote a very very special email as well, one of the phrases that she wrote was “I am very grateful to have a sister like you” she made my day. My Ensenada team from work sang “Happy Birthday” for me over the phone, god that was a joyful suprise!. I had a nice gift from a very good friend over here, unexpected by the way.
For the evening I had a small gathering with people from work at a bar in citywalk. We had a few drinks, nice talk and then we went to a Karaoke bar.
A nice B-Day. Thank you every one for making it so special. Appreciate the love and the time you dedicated with me.
Algo de los dos
Presiento que hoy será cuando me verás
Cada vez que intento estar cerca de ti te vas
Que tonta me siento cuando todo sale mal
Y no sé como explicar lo que tu me das
Me he comprado ropa nueva para destacar
Tu como si no estuviera pasas sin saludar
Te he dicho como me llamo pero no hay señal
Y no dejo de pensar que hago mal
Tantas veces he soñado
Y otras tantas he llorado lágrimas pensando en ti
Y mientiéndome a mi misma
He creído que tenía algo más
Y no sé como acercarme a ti
A todo lo que me haces sentir
Si te veo…
Y no sé como sacar de mi
Eso que tu me haces sentir
Si te veo…
Como amar a alguien que no ve…
Cada vez que intento estar cerca de ti te vas
Que tonta me siento cuando todo sale mal
Y no sé como explicar lo que tu me das
Me he comprado ropa nueva para destacar
Tu como si no estuviera pasas sin saludar
Te he dicho como me llamo pero no hay señal
Y no dejo de pensar que hago mal
Tantas veces he soñado
Y otras tantas he llorado lágrimas pensando en ti
Y mientiéndome a mi misma
He creído que tenía algo más
Y no sé como acercarme a ti
A todo lo que me haces sentir
Si te veo…
Y no sé como sacar de mi
Eso que tu me haces sentir
Si te veo…
Como amar a alguien que no ve…
Creo que hoy me has mirado casi sin querer
Me he quedado sin aliento y eso no puede ser![Canciones de Chenoa]()
Hoy me invitas a tu lado por primera vez
Me he quedado sin aliento y eso no puede ser
Hoy me invitas a tu lado por primera vez
—- this song stops here for me —-
En tus ojos puedo ver que esto puedo ser
Tantas veces he soñado
Y otras tantas he llorado lágrimas pensando en ti
Y ahora creo que no miento
Pienso que llegó el momento para mi
Y ya sé como llegar a ti
Como enseñar mi corazón
Mis deseos…
Y ya sé lo que sientes por mi
Y no me cansaré de oír que me quieres
Ahora amar es algo de los dos…
Y sintiendo en cada brazo
El amor tan esperado que soñé tiempo atrás
Pero ocurren los milagros
Y te siento aquí a mi lado de verdad
Y ya sé lo que sientes por mi
Y no me cansaré de oír que me quieres
Ahora amar es algo de los dos…
Trip to Ensenada with LA Team
Well the trip to Ensenada with LA team was awesome. A long itinerary to follow, although we did a good job. We visited one vineyard, several bars, two restaurants and 2 houses.
Our guests felt comfortable and of course I was happy to be there as every 2 weeks.
My favorite pic from the trip:
Beauties of Life
Recently I have been thinking of the good things that I have in my life (opposite from past month).
One of those good things from life, I must say, are: Friends. We have different type of friends, each group filling different aspects of our life, we have our party friends, friends that make us company, the grumpy friends who are always keeping us in reality, the dreamers and adventured friends that are always encouring us to do new and crazy things, our coworkers friends who are there at work always covering and helping us in everything they can, our NEW friends who always have something new to share with us, sometimes different from what we know … and of course, we have a very special group: our Best Friends, who are there always supporting us, no matter if they are near or far from our location.
Speaking of that group I have one special best friend, who is now in France although always near when I need him. He has been with me, even in the awkward and unhappy episodes of my life.
Thanks for everything Wero.
I miss you.
Back on track…
Long time without writing here.
Aparently the wining and crying didn’t stop until this month, took more than I expected.
Update:
There were several things going on, right now changed my location to LA and had quite an rough adaptation to the new city. People, food, places, work. Even that is different and non-joyful at the beginning, there are many good people here that it is worth to know more.
First impresions: A lot of places to go, few people to join me, lot of things to complain about.
Job is being different from the environment I used to work and some changes as in responsabilities, learning new things… (shouldn’t be that bad)
New apartment – so far, so empty, still finding a matress and probably a couch and tv to relax during the nights.
Lifestyle – of course have changed, now I read more and drink less. I bought rolling skates to go out to the park. I visit home every two weeks and enjoy a loooooooot staying there, even it is tiring have to drive 4 hours on my way home and 5-8 hours my way back it is worth it.
Had my first work-juevebes, pretty much like the ones in Ensenada, except for the people, the place and the bars … almost like home.
Went to my second concert in my whole life. It was Emmanuel’s concert, it was good, the best of the concert his son – Alexander!, so cute and with an amazing voice, bright future for him I guess.
Today I went to a volunteers session of AWBW (A window Between Worlds). a non-profit organization that helps healing with art the effects of domestic violence. I met the most sweet and caring people and of course this was because I will be attending as a volunteer to an event taking place in may about “Butterflies”, my job there: working with KIDS!, awesome. -Thanks again Jamie, this is so much what I needed right now.
Taking people from work to visit Ensenada and it’s tourist attractions, (people that have become my friends now). I am excited to show them the place that makes me happy.
New “personal looking forward items” – Be more independant. Excersice during the morning/night. Read at least 1 book per month. Start saving money. Make my place a suitable place to call it “home”. Buy a camera (missed so many good things because I don’t have one grrrr). Will be adding more to the list.
Next places to visit: Museum & LA Zoo.
That was an update of the few months over here.
Muse – Unintended
Muse – Unintended
You could be my unintended
Choice to live my life extended
You could be the one I’ll always love
You could be the one who listens to my deepest inquisitions
You could be the one I’ll always love
I’ll be there as soon as I can
But I’m busy mending broken pieces of the life I had before
First there was the one who challenged
All my dreams and all my balance
She could never be as good as you
You could be my unintended
Choice to live my life extended
You should be the one I’ll always love
I’ll be there as soon as I can
But I’m busy mending broken pieces of the life I had before
I’ll be there as soon as I can
But I’m busy mending broken pieces of the life I had before
Before you
I love this song! it is awwweeeeeeeesome.
Enough–
Well I had my 5 mintues or my 2 weeks whatever… let’s start with some grown up work and stop complaining… in the first place this is what I wanted, didn’t I?
Starting today I am going to stop the crying and complains and start living with my decisions!… everything in life has a cost, if it were easy then anyone could do it.
Just for today (like AA) I will laugh as I always do, no matter what happens that doesn’t have to change this is who I am.
