11.27.09
Otra vez
Tengo una guitarra en el hombro
Una montaña de asombro una ceniza en la voz
Tengo dos canciones firmadas,
una está envenenada y la otra quiere tu amor
Guardo un recoveco en el alma
Que recuerda tu cara como nadie la vio
Río, lloro y paso de todo por el bien de los dos.
Vivo en un jardín sin malvones
Un zaguán sin salones, tu amistad quinto C
Pido que me olvide tu olvido
Pero ya es bien sabido no lo va a conceder
Ando como siempre vagando
por algún escenario y no lo vas a creer
Supe que mentías y todo por el bien de los dos
Y otra vez seremos dos extraños
Otra vez volveré a hacernos daño
Otra vez estoy en el fondo del dolor
Y otra vez, tu y yo, por el bien de los dos.
Tengo un rincón en la cama
Que ya no entiende nada y me pregunta por vos
Tengo una mitad que se queja
Y otra que no me deja escapar del dolor
Tengo una tremenda ceguera
y no va a ser la primera vez que vuelva a empezar
Porque ya no estas a mi lado por el bien de los dos
Y otra vez seremos dos extraños
Otra vez volveré a hacernos daño
Otra vez estoy en el fondo del dolor
Y otra vez tu y yo…
Y otra vez seremos dos extraños
Otra vez volveré a hacernos daño
Otra vez estoy en el fondo del dolor
Y otra vez, tu y yo, por el bien de los dos
Por el bien de los dos
11.08.09
Somewhere over the rainbow…
Somewhere over the rainbow
Way up high,
And the dreams that you’ve dreamed of
Once in a lullaby.
Somewhere over the rainbow
Bluebirds fly,
And the dreams that you’ve dreamed of
Dreams really do come true.
Someday i’ll wish upon a star
And wake up where the clouds are far
Behind me.
Where troubles melts like lemon drops
Away above the chimney tops
That’s where you’ll find me.
Somewhere over the rainbow
Bluebirds fly.
And the dreams that you dare to..
Oh why, oh why can’t i?
Well, i see
Trees of green and red roses too,
I’ll watch them bloom for me and you
And i think to myself,
What a wonderful world.
Well i see,
Skies of blues and, clouds of white,
And the brightness of day, i like the dark
And i think to myself,
What a wonderful world.
The colors of the rainbow so pretty in the sky
Are also on the faces of people passing by
I see friends shaking hands saying how do you do
They’re really saying i… I love you.
I hear babies cry, i watch them grow
They’ll learn much more than really know
And i think to myself
What a wonderful world.
Someday i’ll wish upon a star
And wake up where the clouds are far
Behind me.
Where troubles melt like lemon drops
Away above the chimney tops
That’s where you’ll find me.
Somewhere over the rainbow
Way up high,
And the dreams that you dare to
Oh why, oh why can’t i?
Tomorrow everything will be okay…
10.31.09
Updates …
April 2009 – I moved to Miami for work in my birthday, people from my new company welcomed me with open arms and joy, everything was so different, weather hot, feels like I can’t breathe at times, humid, very humid.
May 2009 – Learning a lot of things from the new job, got an apartment in a quiet and safe area, close to the beach, water is blue and sand is white, there are palms everywhere and everyone speaks spanish, rich in latin diversity (guatemala, venezuela, colombia, peru, argentina, cuba, puerto rico,…)
June 2009 – Things remain the same, nothing too new, still at the beginning of the learning curve and missing my friends and family everyday more and more.
July 2009 – I made my very first new friend, and went for the first time to see “Grease” musical…
August 2009 – August was a roller coaster of emotions in my love life, between past and present… complicating things as usual…
September 2009- Love life still in the roller coaster, I visited for the first time Key West, Florida a small island in South Florida, a beautiful place, and went to Mexico and to LA to visit my family and friends, can’t believe how big my niece and nephew are… I got a new laptop!..
October 2009 – Six months now in the new city… Halloween spirit is not in me this year. work is going way much better than last month, I joined a non-profit organization for homeless kids in Miami, started swimming and reading again, which helps me relax, my love life a mess (lost my soul mate and my best friend at the same time), trying not to look back, feeling sad and lost most of the days… time will help and better days will come … (I miss you so much … “cause everything’s easier when you’re beside me, come back and find me. cause I feel alone…”)
“Throw Me A Rope”
I want you between me and the feeling I get when I miss you
But everything here is telling me I should be fine
So why is it so, above as below,
That I’m missing you every time
I got used to you whispering things to me into the evening
We followed the sun and its colours and left this world
It seems to me that I’m definitely
Hearing the best that I’ve heard
So throw me a rope to hold me in place
Show me a clock for counting my days down
Cause everything’s easier when you’re beside me
Come back and find me
Cause I feel alone
And whenever you go it’s like holding my breath underwater
I have to admit that I kind of like it when I do
Oh but I’ve got to be unconditionally
Unafraid of my days without you
So throw me a rope to hold me in place
Show me a clock for counting my days down
Cause everything’s easier when you’re beside me
Come back and find me
Whenever I’m falling you’re always behind me
Come back and find me
Cause everything’s easier when you’re beside me
Come back and find me
Cause I feel alone
10.20.09
Se que ya no volveras…
Hoy me pregunté
por qué el final
de nuestra historia es triste
si lo que senti fue tan real
y nunca lo creiste.
Y saber de que sirvió lastimarse asi
yo sé muy bien
dijiste cosas que sabes
no son verdad
y aunque ya no estas
no olvidaré
tus marcas quedaran.
Sé que ya no volveras
Sé que muy lejos estas
que buscas otro lugar
sin mirar hacia atras
Sé que alguna vez
te encontraré y sera extraño verte
sé que el tiempo es una señal
y una respuesta a todo y dira
si aquel dolor
que nos hizo mal, nos hizo bien
fue parte de crecer.
Sé que ya no volveras
Sé que muy lejos estas
y espero que alguna vez
puedas ver que te amé.
Hoy me pregunté
por que el final
de nuestra historia es triste
y si alguna vez te encontraré
si sera bueno verte.
Y saber si esta canción
solo es el adiós que se llevó
lo bueno de este amor.
Sé que ya no volveras
sé que muy lejos estas
que buscas otro lugar
sin mirar hacia atras.
Cuanto me cuesta aceptar
que no pudimos ni hablar
y espero que alguna vez
puedas ver que te amé, que te amé.
08.22.09
A bright day in Miami!
I have 4 months and 4 days in the new city and things have been good, people is awesome. My new co-workers are really cool, everyone speaks spanish wich makes me feel more comfortable, since I got here they made me feel like I had a second family over here.
Even though, (what would I be if I didn’t have anything to complain about right?), these months in the new city and adjusting had not been the best ones in my life, it is true that I have poeple from work over here that cares about me, I miss my family a lot, I hate being alone and it is hard to meet new people to hang out with.
Now that I’ve said my complains, here is the bright side Today is the first day in many that I am not feeling lonely being by own in Miami, it is cool to feel this way after some months. I am doing some housework, painting the apartment and I will find some furniture for my livingroom. This place looks so different with a little bit of paint.
Got myself a comfty chair, a rug to put beneath the table that I love!, chairs match perfectly with the colors on the walls and probably will soon get Wii and some games.
Hope days continue this way, feel like hell became a paradise somehow.
01.19.08
Two weeks in the jungle…
Yes two weeks, sounds like a short time huh?… well it is not short when you are in a diferent country with diferent people and a different job, no friends and only a phone call to home… Is it hard? yes, very much, for me it is.
12.27.07
Family & Christmas
Past weekend I went to San Diego to make my christmas shopping and I stayed with my dad’s family, I spend two days with them and it was nice having some time with the Family.
I went to all the malls I could with one of my cousins 
. It feels rare to have cousins to hang out with jeje, I invited them over for New Years, hope they can make it.
09.04.07
Better!
Okay, I guess Friday I was a bit dissapointed and I overreacted but “This is Life” isn´t?… After all we are humans, I feel much better now
Getting back to work tomorrow (a long weeked) I am hoping for a wonderful day at work!
Besides a teammate is visitting us from Aguascalientes.
Welcome to Ensenada
07.14.07
Better days will come, I’m sure.
Today I woke up and had no idea how the day would find a way to give me something nice to feel alive and happy.
Feeling better than past days, months…
07.09.07
Another day in Paradise!
Another day comes by, things are the same as they used to be long time ago and I don’t know what to do to make them be different – (yet)
Probably this doesn’t make sense to you and it shouldn’t unless you know me you will understand, but oh well if you don’t it doesn’t matter, who cares anyway, just wanted some place to write about nothing!
07.07.07
Life
Why is it that when we think we have everything we always ‘desired’ we feel so lonely and empty inside?
Who knows what is better?
Who knows what happiness means?
I’ve been searching all my life for the best moment, the happiest birthday, the coolest job, the perfect man and there yet at my 24 years I still feel ‘not full of joy’…
Phrases like ‘I wish…’, ‘I hope…’, ‘I would like to…’, ‘If only…’, etc are pretty common these past months.
But It is what it is…
05.12.07
About this year
This year, I had become a professional, mentally speaking, easy to say huh?…
Well innumerate things have passed over these long months and days: people in, people out my life, new friends, remembering old days…
I feel different this year and looking forward for more challenges in my life, but before that happens:
Three things I have to solve by the end of the year.
- Immigration papers from USA (hopefully June 6)
- Bachelor degree (no delay- too much time have passed)
- TOEIC (English certification)
Three things I have to work on along the year
- Be more organized (for god sake)!!
- Read & write more
- Drink less, excersice more
I made a really big effort to get this post done.
