11.27.09
Ahora quien?
A quién van a engañar ahora tus brazos
A quién van a mentirle ahora tus labios
A quién vas a decirle ahora “te amo”
Y luego en el silencio le darás tu cuerpo
Detendrás el tiempo sobre la almohada
Pasarán mil horas en tu mirada
Sólo existirá la vida amándote
Ahora quién?
Y quién te escribirá poemas y cartas
Y quién te contará sus miedos y faltas
A quién le dejarás dormirse en tu espalda
Y luego en el silencio le dirás “te quiero”
Detendrás su aliento sobre tu cara
Perderá su rumbo en tu mirada
Y se le olvidará la vida amándote
Ahora quién?
Ahora quién si no soy yo
Me miro y lloro en el espejo y me siento estúpido
Ilógico, y luego te imagino toda regalando el olor de tu piel
Tus besos, tu sonrisa eterna y hasta el alma en un beso
En un beso va el alma
Y en mi alma está el beso que pudo ser
A quién le dejarás tu aroma en la cama?
A quién le quedará el recuerdo mañana?
A quién le pasarán las horas con calma?
Y luego en el silencio deseará tu cuerpo
Se detendrá el tiempo sobre su cara
Pasará mil horas en la ventana
Se le acabará la voz llamándote
Ahora quién?
Ahora quién?
Ahora quién si no soy yo?
Me miro y lloro en el espejo y me siento estúpido
Ilógico, y luego te imagino toda regalando el olor de tu piel
Tus besos, tu sonrisa eterna y hasta el alma en un beso
En un beso va el alma
En mi alma está el beso que pudo ser
11.22.09
Feeling sick…
The heat of the city makes me feel okay, although weather is changing over here, after some time I wasn’t feeling too bad, but today just hit me hard after a walk on the beach.
I think my sinusitis is coming back, headaches are killing me, I hate the congestion and the weakness…
Need to take better of myself… 
11.15.09
Sunday @ Miami
Today was a long day, left home early morning and just got home a few minutes ago, let myself out of my cocoon, decided to do different activities rather than working, since the weather was so beautiful!
-Morning, Volunteer work, cleaning, packing food, wrapping clothes, planning for Christmas, although I won’t be here, I can still offer some help with preparation. The feeling I get after doing something valuable for others with my time is priceless.
-Mid day, Explored Little Havana, ate real Cuban food, walked through the Memorial park, shopping was great found a cuban tool, called “tostonera” that can make perfectly circled Mexican ”gorditas”, got some dried “chile de arbol”, a rolling stick for flour “tortillas” and the traditional “jabon Roma”, was a good visit.
-Afternoon, New books for November & December, spent some time at Borders picking my books for the month, and the winners were, taraaaaan…
- “Wicked – Son of a Witch”, I am so excited about this book, I loved Volume 1 and had no idea there were 3 of them, however, I left the 3rd volume for January.
- “Skinny Bitch”, oh yeah baby
, no need to describe this one. - “Act Like a Lady, Think Like a Man” by Steve Harvey, maybe I will be able to understand them better after all.
- And finally, “A possible dream” by Walter Dresel, recover the ability to dream and make those dreams possible with the strength that resides within ourselves, I don’t even know why I got this one, but seems worth it to give it a try.
Got myself a pair of roller-blades , inspired by the weather, will be nice to go to the beach in the following days.
Next weekend will plan something out and maybe invite my neighbor to go with me, keeping me busy is good.
I am exhausted, *sight*
Fragile
Last year in this month one of my dearest friend’s brother unexpectedly died from a heart attack and a coworker lost his dad, today one guy that I work with, lost his sister in a car accident. I can’t imagine their sorrow.
There is no doubt that we’re all going to die one day, the real mystery is when and how?, until then this is what we have, life, the choices we make mark the path of our lives, and at the end of them the only thing that we leave is the memories that others have of us.
There are many things we cannot control, let’s stick with the ones we can, and respect the dead by continuing to live.
At times like this, words cannot express our feelings, my deepest sympathy is with them.
I am so blessed to have all my family, I will see all of you soon, I love you.
11.08.09
Another volunteer day in Miami
How sad is the world that we live in, where some of us have so many and in the same city a lot of poorness and homeless people fighting each day against hunger and a place to stay.
Every child in this world must be able to have a home with people that cares about him/her, this is not right, is not fair…
At least for today, I felt that I had something to give, my problems seemed nothing compared to theirs, it was comforting to know that with a few hours of my time, along with other people, we can help to change kids lives in so many ways, give hope and a little bit of love.
Looking forward for next week.
(International Volunteer Day – December 5th)
10.31.09
Updates …
April 2009 – I moved to Miami for work in my birthday, people from my new company welcomed me with open arms and joy, everything was so different, weather hot, feels like I can’t breathe at times, humid, very humid.
May 2009 – Learning a lot of things from the new job, got an apartment in a quiet and safe area, close to the beach, water is blue and sand is white, there are palms everywhere and everyone speaks spanish, rich in latin diversity (guatemala, venezuela, colombia, peru, argentina, cuba, puerto rico,…)
June 2009 – Things remain the same, nothing too new, still at the beginning of the learning curve and missing my friends and family everyday more and more.
July 2009 – I made my very first new friend, and went for the first time to see “Grease” musical…
August 2009 – August was a roller coaster of emotions in my love life, between past and present… complicating things as usual…
September 2009- Love life still in the roller coaster, I visited for the first time Key West, Florida a small island in South Florida, a beautiful place, and went to Mexico and to LA to visit my family and friends, can’t believe how big my niece and nephew are… I got a new laptop!..
October 2009 – Six months now in the new city… Halloween spirit is not in me this year. work is going way much better than last month, I joined a non-profit organization for homeless kids in Miami, started swimming and reading again, which helps me relax, my love life a mess (lost my soul mate and my best friend at the same time), trying not to look back, feeling sad and lost most of the days… time will help and better days will come … (I miss you so much … “cause everything’s easier when you’re beside me, come back and find me. cause I feel alone…”)
“Throw Me A Rope”
I want you between me and the feeling I get when I miss you
But everything here is telling me I should be fine
So why is it so, above as below,
That I’m missing you every time
I got used to you whispering things to me into the evening
We followed the sun and its colours and left this world
It seems to me that I’m definitely
Hearing the best that I’ve heard
So throw me a rope to hold me in place
Show me a clock for counting my days down
Cause everything’s easier when you’re beside me
Come back and find me
Cause I feel alone
And whenever you go it’s like holding my breath underwater
I have to admit that I kind of like it when I do
Oh but I’ve got to be unconditionally
Unafraid of my days without you
So throw me a rope to hold me in place
Show me a clock for counting my days down
Cause everything’s easier when you’re beside me
Come back and find me
Whenever I’m falling you’re always behind me
Come back and find me
Cause everything’s easier when you’re beside me
Come back and find me
Cause I feel alone
09.04.09
Boulevard Of Broken Dreams
“Boulevard Of Broken Dreams”
I walk a lonely road
The only one that I have ever known
Don’t know where it goes
But it’s home to me and I walk alone
I walk this empty street
On the Boulevard of Broken Dreams
Where the city sleeps
and I’m the only one and I walk alone
I walk alone
I walk alone
I walk alone
I walk a…
My shadow’s the only one that walks beside me
My shallow heart’s the only thing that’s beating
Sometimes I wish someone out there will find me
‘Til then I walk alone
Ah-ah, Ah-ah, Ah-ah, Aaah-ah,
Ah-ah, Ah-ah, Ah-ah
I’m walking down the line
That divides me somewhere in my mind
On the border line
Of the edge and where I walk alone
Read between the lines
What’s fucked up and everything’s alright
Check my vital signs
To know I’m still alive and I walk alone
I walk alone
I walk alone
I walk alone
I walk a…
My shadow’s the only one that walks beside me
My shallow heart’s the only thing that’s beating
Sometimes I wish someone out there will find me
‘Til then I walk alone
Ah-ah, Ah-ah, Ah-ah, Aaah-ah
Ah-ah, Ah-ah
I walk alone
I walk a…
I walk this empty street
On the Boulevard of Broken Dreams
Where the city sleeps
And I’m the only one and I walk a…
My shadow’s the only one that walks beside me
My shallow heart’s the only thing that’s beating
Sometimes I wish someone out there will find me
‘Til then I walk alone…
07.05.09
Changes…
There has been changes in my life recently… I changed my job with it, my residency I moved from LA to Miami. which it is a completely different place, I have been here for almost 3 months now and I haven’t find my comfortable zone yet, work is different, people is different and will have to adapt sooner or later, don’t know how long will be here but I hope it’s enough, enough for what? I don’t know 
… yet.
03.03.09
Jose Jose – He renunciado a ti.
He renunciado a ti, definitivamente
he renunciado a ti, y esta vez para siempre
Te habras fijado que no te busco
que pasa el tiempo y no voy por tu casa.
que no me ves por los sitios que pasas
he renunciado a ti
he renunciado a ti.
Porque es pura fantasia nuestro amor
ilusiones que se borran con el tiempo
porque es tanta la distancia entre los dos
que es dificil que podamos comprendernos.
He renunciado a ti, como hace el mendigo
ante el juguete caro, que llevaria a su hijo
como las aves a las estrellas
como renuncia a ser flor lo que es hierba
y cualquier hombre a volver a ser ninio
he renunciado a ti
he renunciado a ti.
11.11.08
Halloween day!
I celebrated my first halloween in the US, it is a huge celebration over here, so I decided to dress up even for work.
06.17.08
Juevebes in LA
Past thrusday we had a happy hour from work, the second one since I am here. The theme was Lakers vs Celtics game. Unfortunately Lakers lost that game. No one took pictures (geez I need a camera). Anayways here are some pictures from the first Juevebes, one of the girls had a camera.
Visiting Friends
I have some friends that from time to time I visit now. A girl that lives here in LA with her husband and a coworker and his wife.
Past friday I went to visit my coworker, his wife and their 2 lovely kids.
This picture is from last year on a visit I did to LA.
05.28.08
Early mornings, Late days, Long nights
I am planning to find a place where I can swim during the morning or nights, I love to swim but somehow I haven’t during the past few months that I am here.
Lately I’ve been adapting myself completely to the new city. I do not complain anymore about the beautiful things I have and my days at the office have become shorter than before since I have more activities during the week: movies, reading, dinner out, walks, shopping and some bars.
Now I have a few nice friends, one of them is coming back from his long vacations (hometown) he is here next week, other one which I see often, we had been discovering places from LA.
I’ve been busy almost every night (some of them really late), few times by myself which it’s great because I love being rounded by people.
Well hope more exciting things come by.
05.05.08
Chenoa – Contigo o sin ti
Si es error mentir, los dos, peor es la verdad
Que en fin tu y yo creíamos podernos amar
Y así sin miedo día a día lo seriamos más ya no, no más
Quiero escapar donde el aire este mas limpio, donde brille el sol
Que alguien pueda comprenderme donde sienta pasión
En un sitio donde estalle el color
Y así poder decir que yo trate de encontrar el amor
No puedo ya vivir contigo ni sin ti
Gloria y esclavitud locura sin fin
Todo ese amor que te di a donde ira
A un rincón desconocido no hay calor
Donde calla el sentimiento
Donde parte en dos el corazón
Yo me voy, te vas sufriendo
Lo que nunca ha debido empezar ya no, no más
Quiero escapar donde el aire este mas limpio, donde brille el sol
Que alguien pueda comprenderme donde sienta pasión
En un sitio donde estalle el color
Y así poder decir que yo trate de encontrar el amor
No puedo ya vivir contigo ni sin ti
Gloria y esclavitud locura sin fin
Todo ese amor que te di a donde ira
A un rincón desconocido no hay calor
Donde calla el sentimiento
Donde parte en dos el corazón
No puedo ya vivir contigo ni sin ti
Gloria y esclavitud locura sin fin
Todo ese amor que te di a donde ira
A un rincón desconocido no hay calor
Donde calla el sentimiento
Donde parte en dos
Todo ese amor que te di a donde ira
A un rincón desconocido no hay calor
Donde calla el sentimiento
Donde parte en dos el corazón
El corazón
04.17.08
Algo de los dos
Cada vez que intento estar cerca de ti te vas
Que tonta me siento cuando todo sale mal
Y no sé como explicar lo que tu me das
Me he comprado ropa nueva para destacar
Tu como si no estuviera pasas sin saludar
Te he dicho como me llamo pero no hay señal
Y no dejo de pensar que hago mal
Tantas veces he soñado
Y otras tantas he llorado lágrimas pensando en ti
Y mientiéndome a mi misma
He creído que tenía algo más
Y no sé como acercarme a ti
A todo lo que me haces sentir
Si te veo…
Y no sé como sacar de mi
Eso que tu me haces sentir
Si te veo…
Como amar a alguien que no ve…
Me he quedado sin aliento y eso no puede ser
Hoy me invitas a tu lado por primera vez
En tus ojos puedo ver que esto puedo ser
Tantas veces he soñado
Y otras tantas he llorado lágrimas pensando en ti
Y ahora creo que no miento
Pienso que llegó el momento para mi
Y ya sé como llegar a ti
Como enseñar mi corazón
Mis deseos…
Y ya sé lo que sientes por mi
Y no me cansaré de oír que me quieres
Ahora amar es algo de los dos…
Y sintiendo en cada brazo
El amor tan esperado que soñé tiempo atrás
Pero ocurren los milagros
Y te siento aquí a mi lado de verdad
Y ya sé lo que sientes por mi
Y no me cansaré de oír que me quieres
Ahora amar es algo de los dos…
04.06.08
Back on track…
Long time without writing here.
Aparently the wining and crying didn’t stop until this month, took more than I expected.
Update:
There were several things going on, right now changed my location to LA and had quite an rough adaptation to the new city. People, food, places, work. Even that is different and non-joyful at the beginning, there are many good people here that it is worth to know more.
First impresions: A lot of places to go, few people to join me, lot of things to complain about.
Job is being different from the environment I used to work and some changes as in responsabilities, learning new things… (shouldn’t be that bad)
New apartment – so far, so empty, still finding a matress and probably a couch and tv to relax during the nights.
Lifestyle – of course have changed, now I read more and drink less. I bought rolling skates to go out to the park. I visit home every two weeks and enjoy a loooooooot staying there, even it is tiring have to drive 4 hours on my way home and 5-8 hours my way back it is worth it.
Had my first work-juevebes, pretty much like the ones in Ensenada, except for the people, the place and the bars … almost like home.
Went to my second concert in my whole life. It was Emmanuel’s concert, it was good, the best of the concert his son – Alexander!, so cute and with an amazing voice, bright future for him I guess.
Today I went to a volunteers session of AWBW (A window Between Worlds). a non-profit organization that helps healing with art the effects of domestic violence. I met the most sweet and caring people and of course this was because I will be attending as a volunteer to an event taking place in may about “Butterflies”, my job there: working with KIDS!, awesome. -Thanks again Jamie, this is so much what I needed right now.
Taking people from work to visit Ensenada and it’s tourist attractions, (people that have become my friends now). I am excited to show them the place that makes me happy.
New “personal looking forward items” – Be more independant. Excersice during the morning/night. Read at least 1 book per month. Start saving money. Make my place a suitable place to call it “home”. Buy a camera (missed so many good things because I don’t have one grrrr). Will be adding more to the list.
Next places to visit: Museum & LA Zoo.
That was an update of the few months over here.
01.07.08
Arrival
Here I am now, had my first overview of my new responsabilites, yes I am still excited and nervous, we will see tomorrow.
Hotel room so far…
gathering with onsite team…
12.03.07
Houston Houston…
Houston Team we have a problem…
Housto R – Rodrigo,
Houston S – Sergio,
Houston N – Nelly
Funny huh?
