11.27.09
Otra vez
Tengo una guitarra en el hombro
Una montaña de asombro una ceniza en la voz
Tengo dos canciones firmadas,
una está envenenada y la otra quiere tu amor
Guardo un recoveco en el alma
Que recuerda tu cara como nadie la vio
Río, lloro y paso de todo por el bien de los dos.
Vivo en un jardín sin malvones
Un zaguán sin salones, tu amistad quinto C
Pido que me olvide tu olvido
Pero ya es bien sabido no lo va a conceder
Ando como siempre vagando
por algún escenario y no lo vas a creer
Supe que mentías y todo por el bien de los dos
Y otra vez seremos dos extraños
Otra vez volveré a hacernos daño
Otra vez estoy en el fondo del dolor
Y otra vez, tu y yo, por el bien de los dos.
Tengo un rincón en la cama
Que ya no entiende nada y me pregunta por vos
Tengo una mitad que se queja
Y otra que no me deja escapar del dolor
Tengo una tremenda ceguera
y no va a ser la primera vez que vuelva a empezar
Porque ya no estas a mi lado por el bien de los dos
Y otra vez seremos dos extraños
Otra vez volveré a hacernos daño
Otra vez estoy en el fondo del dolor
Y otra vez tu y yo…
Y otra vez seremos dos extraños
Otra vez volveré a hacernos daño
Otra vez estoy en el fondo del dolor
Y otra vez, tu y yo, por el bien de los dos
Por el bien de los dos
11.20.09
Maybe
Maybe I am growing up, I don’t know, but growing old for sure!, found another gray hair today 
11.15.09
Fragile
Last year in this month one of my dearest friend’s brother unexpectedly died from a heart attack and a coworker lost his dad, today one guy that I work with, lost his sister in a car accident. I can’t imagine their sorrow.
There is no doubt that we’re all going to die one day, the real mystery is when and how?, until then this is what we have, life, the choices we make mark the path of our lives, and at the end of them the only thing that we leave is the memories that others have of us.
There are many things we cannot control, let’s stick with the ones we can, and respect the dead by continuing to live.
At times like this, words cannot express our feelings, my deepest sympathy is with them.
I am so blessed to have all my family, I will see all of you soon, I love you.
11.08.09
Another volunteer day in Miami
How sad is the world that we live in, where some of us have so many and in the same city a lot of poorness and homeless people fighting each day against hunger and a place to stay.
Every child in this world must be able to have a home with people that cares about him/her, this is not right, is not fair…
At least for today, I felt that I had something to give, my problems seemed nothing compared to theirs, it was comforting to know that with a few hours of my time, along with other people, we can help to change kids lives in so many ways, give hope and a little bit of love.
Looking forward for next week.
(International Volunteer Day – December 5th)
Somewhere over the rainbow…
Somewhere over the rainbow
Way up high,
And the dreams that you’ve dreamed of
Once in a lullaby.
Somewhere over the rainbow
Bluebirds fly,
And the dreams that you’ve dreamed of
Dreams really do come true.
Someday i’ll wish upon a star
And wake up where the clouds are far
Behind me.
Where troubles melts like lemon drops
Away above the chimney tops
That’s where you’ll find me.
Somewhere over the rainbow
Bluebirds fly.
And the dreams that you dare to..
Oh why, oh why can’t i?
Well, i see
Trees of green and red roses too,
I’ll watch them bloom for me and you
And i think to myself,
What a wonderful world.
Well i see,
Skies of blues and, clouds of white,
And the brightness of day, i like the dark
And i think to myself,
What a wonderful world.
The colors of the rainbow so pretty in the sky
Are also on the faces of people passing by
I see friends shaking hands saying how do you do
They’re really saying i… I love you.
I hear babies cry, i watch them grow
They’ll learn much more than really know
And i think to myself
What a wonderful world.
Someday i’ll wish upon a star
And wake up where the clouds are far
Behind me.
Where troubles melt like lemon drops
Away above the chimney tops
That’s where you’ll find me.
Somewhere over the rainbow
Way up high,
And the dreams that you dare to
Oh why, oh why can’t i?
Tomorrow everything will be okay…
10.20.09
Se que ya no volveras…
Hoy me pregunté
por qué el final
de nuestra historia es triste
si lo que senti fue tan real
y nunca lo creiste.
Y saber de que sirvió lastimarse asi
yo sé muy bien
dijiste cosas que sabes
no son verdad
y aunque ya no estas
no olvidaré
tus marcas quedaran.
Sé que ya no volveras
Sé que muy lejos estas
que buscas otro lugar
sin mirar hacia atras
Sé que alguna vez
te encontraré y sera extraño verte
sé que el tiempo es una señal
y una respuesta a todo y dira
si aquel dolor
que nos hizo mal, nos hizo bien
fue parte de crecer.
Sé que ya no volveras
Sé que muy lejos estas
y espero que alguna vez
puedas ver que te amé.
Hoy me pregunté
por que el final
de nuestra historia es triste
y si alguna vez te encontraré
si sera bueno verte.
Y saber si esta canción
solo es el adiós que se llevó
lo bueno de este amor.
Sé que ya no volveras
sé que muy lejos estas
que buscas otro lugar
sin mirar hacia atras.
Cuanto me cuesta aceptar
que no pudimos ni hablar
y espero que alguna vez
puedas ver que te amé, que te amé.
03.03.09
Updates!…
Has been a long time since the last time I wrote here. A lot of things have happened, but I will list the ones that I remember for now.
November 2008, went to Las Vegas for the first time with my sister, our first trip together by ourselves, it was good times, had coffee from every hotel we visited.
December 2008, went home for two weeks for the holidays, had a reunion with university colleagues.
January 2009, my first anniversary in LA, I’ve realized how much I have grown in the past year and I was surprisingly happy to be back to my apartment. I stopped resisting to glasses. Trying to go to bellydance classes.
February 2009, went to Las Vegas for my second time to celebrate one of my friends birthday, saw snow for the first time!, said goodbye to some friends that moved on, took myself the decision to move on, seek for new adventures in other cities. Went to my frist yoga class, which is hard.
March 2009, understanding slowly that everyone eventually will move on, even me, and that we have to quick adapt to new environments and people.
This year is looking good.
08.18.08
AWBW – “The monster in me”
Another episode in the AWBW open house past August 6th, the theme “The Monster in Me” exhibit.
These paints show how their truly feelings are with art they get to express what with words they can just not say, what it is in their minds, in their hearts. Wacthing the paints you get to open a window into their world and how using Arit they can finally open their emotions and release all the bad energy/regrets/feelings/pain they have inside.
Here are some of the drawings in the exhibit (The last one broke my heart, Can you imagine a little kid not understanding what it is happening to him/her?)
This is just so frustrating but at the same time motivating to keep up the work and feel grateful for all what we have and taking the opportunity that it has been given to help kids and women that had been abused in any way and how these shelters from asociations like AWBW (http://www.awbw.org) have been given them hope to continue with their life.
It was very touching and encouraging, definitely will keep supporting the association even if I am only a volunteer for now.
Broken - Shelly Delter
I will bite your head - Anonymous
I am sorry for being a monster - Maria
Why daddy? - Stephanie
04.09.08
Beauties of Life
Recently I have been thinking of the good things that I have in my life (opposite from past month).
One of those good things from life, I must say, are: Friends. We have different type of friends, each group filling different aspects of our life, we have our party friends, friends that make us company, the grumpy friends who are always keeping us in reality, the dreamers and adventured friends that are always encouring us to do new and crazy things, our coworkers friends who are there at work always covering and helping us in everything they can, our NEW friends who always have something new to share with us, sometimes different from what we know … and of course, we have a very special group: our Best Friends, who are there always supporting us, no matter if they are near or far from our location.
Speaking of that group I have one special best friend, who is now in France although always near when I need him. He has been with me, even in the awkward and unhappy episodes of my life.
Thanks for everything Wero.
I miss you.
01.22.08
Enough–
Well I had my 5 mintues or my 2 weeks whatever… let’s start with some grown up work and stop complaining… in the first place this is what I wanted, didn’t I?
Starting today I am going to stop the crying and complains and start living with my decisions!… everything in life has a cost, if it were easy then anyone could do it.
Just for today (like AA) I will laugh as I always do, no matter what happens that doesn’t have to change this is who I am.
01.07.08
Farewell
Well after everything I am leaving my loved Ensenada, seeking a new adventure and my co workers joined me to a very warming farewell.
Thank you I am going to miss you all of you.
08.31.07
Work, People, Farewell
Today was a very stressful day at work, actually whole week was awful I must say, not because of the work I love my work, but because of the people, consecuence of my acts of course. I have to be more mature and it feels bad inside when things do not occur as you imagined, hopefully I will learn from this situation.
I lost a friend a good one because of my stupideness, I feel so bad, I would ran away right now and make like if nothing its happening, but I can’t.
For my good, thanks to the gods that is friday and I don’t have to go there until tuesday.
By the way today is a sad day also because another of my friends left to his hometown and he is not comming back, hope everything goes cool for him and my best wishes.
I know it will be better for you but I can’t help feeling sad, I will miss you around.
Better days will come…
08.27.07
Life is not pink!
Well lately I’ve been learning new stuff for my professional growth, seeing succesful people I’ve discovered that life is not as easy as I though it was, it’s going to be hard to achieve the goals I have.
I feel like writing a thank you after all this learning…
Thanks to all the people from whom I have learned new & good things, thanks to my family & truly friends for being such a sweet influence in my life and for their support when I am not acting in the better way, thanks to the mean people that i have met because thanks to them i have learned the most.
Finally thanks to all the people that had always been there when i need them.
Better days will come.
