11.27.09
Otra vez
Tengo una guitarra en el hombro
Una montaña de asombro una ceniza en la voz
Tengo dos canciones firmadas,
una está envenenada y la otra quiere tu amor
Guardo un recoveco en el alma
Que recuerda tu cara como nadie la vio
Río, lloro y paso de todo por el bien de los dos.
Vivo en un jardín sin malvones
Un zaguán sin salones, tu amistad quinto C
Pido que me olvide tu olvido
Pero ya es bien sabido no lo va a conceder
Ando como siempre vagando
por algún escenario y no lo vas a creer
Supe que mentías y todo por el bien de los dos
Y otra vez seremos dos extraños
Otra vez volveré a hacernos daño
Otra vez estoy en el fondo del dolor
Y otra vez, tu y yo, por el bien de los dos.
Tengo un rincón en la cama
Que ya no entiende nada y me pregunta por vos
Tengo una mitad que se queja
Y otra que no me deja escapar del dolor
Tengo una tremenda ceguera
y no va a ser la primera vez que vuelva a empezar
Porque ya no estas a mi lado por el bien de los dos
Y otra vez seremos dos extraños
Otra vez volveré a hacernos daño
Otra vez estoy en el fondo del dolor
Y otra vez tu y yo…
Y otra vez seremos dos extraños
Otra vez volveré a hacernos daño
Otra vez estoy en el fondo del dolor
Y otra vez, tu y yo, por el bien de los dos
Por el bien de los dos
Maybe
Maybe I am growing up, I don’t know, but growing old for sure!, found another gray hair today 
11.15.09
Fragile
Last year in this month one of my dearest friend’s brother unexpectedly died from a heart attack and a coworker lost his dad, today one guy that I work with, lost his sister in a car accident. I can’t imagine their sorrow.
There is no doubt that we’re all going to die one day, the real mystery is when and how?, until then this is what we have, life, the choices we make mark the path of our lives, and at the end of them the only thing that we leave is the memories that others have of us.
There are many things we cannot control, let’s stick with the ones we can, and respect the dead by continuing to live.
At times like this, words cannot express our feelings, my deepest sympathy is with them.
I am so blessed to have all my family, I will see all of you soon, I love you.
11.13.09
In that one moment…
“And in that one moment, you don’t seem to think.
You don’t think of your best friend, who is exactly like you.
You don’t think about how much your dog loves you.
Or even how much you love your dog.
You don’t think of how there’s a giant piece of cake waiting for you in the fridge,
Or even how that movie you’ve been wanting to see is coming out in 3 days.
You don’t think of how basketball season is starting, which is your favorite,
You don’t think about how much you enjoy your time alone,
And you don’t seem to be able to remember all the good times you’ve had with friends.
It doesn’t cross you mind, that your favorite hockey team just won the game;
Or even that perhaps it’ll snow tonight, and you love snow.
But you don’t think of any of that.
For that one moment, all you can think of, is that nothing is ever going to be alright again.”
11.08.09
Somewhere over the rainbow…
Somewhere over the rainbow
Way up high,
And the dreams that you’ve dreamed of
Once in a lullaby.
Somewhere over the rainbow
Bluebirds fly,
And the dreams that you’ve dreamed of
Dreams really do come true.
Someday i’ll wish upon a star
And wake up where the clouds are far
Behind me.
Where troubles melts like lemon drops
Away above the chimney tops
That’s where you’ll find me.
Somewhere over the rainbow
Bluebirds fly.
And the dreams that you dare to..
Oh why, oh why can’t i?
Well, i see
Trees of green and red roses too,
I’ll watch them bloom for me and you
And i think to myself,
What a wonderful world.
Well i see,
Skies of blues and, clouds of white,
And the brightness of day, i like the dark
And i think to myself,
What a wonderful world.
The colors of the rainbow so pretty in the sky
Are also on the faces of people passing by
I see friends shaking hands saying how do you do
They’re really saying i… I love you.
I hear babies cry, i watch them grow
They’ll learn much more than really know
And i think to myself
What a wonderful world.
Someday i’ll wish upon a star
And wake up where the clouds are far
Behind me.
Where troubles melt like lemon drops
Away above the chimney tops
That’s where you’ll find me.
Somewhere over the rainbow
Way up high,
And the dreams that you dare to
Oh why, oh why can’t i?
Tomorrow everything will be okay…
10.31.09
Honest Goodbyes
Sink with the tide
Rescue me if you like
I’ll be leaving it all up to you
Think how we tried
It’s o.k. to be lied to
As long as it’s only by you
People say to me it’s best that we’ve parted
‘Cause you know I’m better alone
Don’t explain to me how you’re so broken hearted
I’m too busy mending my own
Ending each night with such honest goodbyes
Such honest goodbyes for the last time
Honest goodbyes only work once or twice
They work once or twice
Then the rest must be lies
Late ever night the colours fade from the sky
And the music is gone from the moon
Standing in line for what used to be mine
What use is the rhyme with no tune
People say to me it’s best that we’ve parted
And nothing is carved out in stone
It’s such a shame how we’re back where we started
It’s late now and time that we go
Ending each night with such honest goodbyes
Such honest goodbyes for the last time
Honest goodbyes only work once or twice
They work once or twice
Then the rest must be lies
The rest must be lies
The rest must be lies
The rest must be lies
The rest must be lies
The rest must be lies
The rest must be lies
The rest must be lies
10.20.09
Se que ya no volveras…
Hoy me pregunté
por qué el final
de nuestra historia es triste
si lo que senti fue tan real
y nunca lo creiste.
Y saber de que sirvió lastimarse asi
yo sé muy bien
dijiste cosas que sabes
no son verdad
y aunque ya no estas
no olvidaré
tus marcas quedaran.
Sé que ya no volveras
Sé que muy lejos estas
que buscas otro lugar
sin mirar hacia atras
Sé que alguna vez
te encontraré y sera extraño verte
sé que el tiempo es una señal
y una respuesta a todo y dira
si aquel dolor
que nos hizo mal, nos hizo bien
fue parte de crecer.
Sé que ya no volveras
Sé que muy lejos estas
y espero que alguna vez
puedas ver que te amé.
Hoy me pregunté
por que el final
de nuestra historia es triste
y si alguna vez te encontraré
si sera bueno verte.
Y saber si esta canción
solo es el adiós que se llevó
lo bueno de este amor.
Sé que ya no volveras
sé que muy lejos estas
que buscas otro lugar
sin mirar hacia atras.
Cuanto me cuesta aceptar
que no pudimos ni hablar
y espero que alguna vez
puedas ver que te amé, que te amé.
08.22.09
A bright day in Miami!
I have 4 months and 4 days in the new city and things have been good, people is awesome. My new co-workers are really cool, everyone speaks spanish wich makes me feel more comfortable, since I got here they made me feel like I had a second family over here.
Even though, (what would I be if I didn’t have anything to complain about right?), these months in the new city and adjusting had not been the best ones in my life, it is true that I have poeple from work over here that cares about me, I miss my family a lot, I hate being alone and it is hard to meet new people to hang out with.
Now that I’ve said my complains, here is the bright side Today is the first day in many that I am not feeling lonely being by own in Miami, it is cool to feel this way after some months. I am doing some housework, painting the apartment and I will find some furniture for my livingroom. This place looks so different with a little bit of paint.
Got myself a comfty chair, a rug to put beneath the table that I love!, chairs match perfectly with the colors on the walls and probably will soon get Wii and some games.
Hope days continue this way, feel like hell became a paradise somehow.
01.22.08
Enough–
Well I had my 5 mintues or my 2 weeks whatever… let’s start with some grown up work and stop complaining… in the first place this is what I wanted, didn’t I?
Starting today I am going to stop the crying and complains and start living with my decisions!… everything in life has a cost, if it were easy then anyone could do it.
Just for today (like AA) I will laugh as I always do, no matter what happens that doesn’t have to change this is who I am.
09.04.07
Better!
Okay, I guess Friday I was a bit dissapointed and I overreacted but “This is Life” isn´t?… After all we are humans, I feel much better now 
Getting back to work tomorrow (a long weeked) I am hoping for a wonderful day at work!
Besides a teammate is visitting us from Aguascalientes.
Welcome to Ensenada
07.07.07
Life
Why is it that when we think we have everything we always ‘desired’ we feel so lonely and empty inside?
Who knows what is better?
Who knows what happiness means?
I’ve been searching all my life for the best moment, the happiest birthday, the coolest job, the perfect man and there yet at my 24 years I still feel ‘not full of joy’…
Phrases like ‘I wish…’, ‘I hope…’, ‘I would like to…’, ‘If only…’, etc are pretty common these past months.
But It is what it is…
06.08.07
Back to my loved Ensenada!
Since thrusday I am back to my hometown from my trip to get my USA Residency in Cd Juarez, Chihuahua which it wasn’t that bad, tons of people waiting to have a chance to live the american dream.
Oh well guess what?. I came back with no papers, no visa, no nothing but a lot of less money in my pockets and a sad face.
Unfortunately my dad’s income is not enough to support us (my sisters, my brother and I) according to USA standards, and our income from Mexico does not count to the process (which sucks!) and to get an interview we had to wait 6 long years.
Next & Final Step – Find a sponsor, so the process can continue and be finished
Other than that everything is cool!. I will post pictures once I donwload them
