Se que hay en tus ojos con solo mirar
que estas cansado de andar y de andar
y caminar, girando siempre en un lugar
Se que las ventanas se pueden abrir
cambiar el aire depende de ti
te ayudara, vale la pena una vez mas
Saber
que se puede, querer que se pueda
Quitarse los miedos, sacarlos afuera
pintarse la cara color esperanza
tentar al futuro con el corazon
Es mejor perderse que nunca embarcar
mejor tentarse a dejar de intentar
aunque ya ves que no es tan facil empezar
Se que lo imposible se puede lograr
que la tristeza algun da se ira
y asi sera, la vida cambia y cambiara
Sentiras que el alma vuela
por cantar una vez mas
Saber que se puede querer que se pueda
quitarse los miedos, sacarlos afuera
pintarse la cara color esperanza
tentar al futuro con el corazon
Saber que se puede querer que se pueda
quitarse los miedos, sacarlos afuera
pintarse la cara color esperanza
tentar al futuro con el corazn
Vale ms poder brillar
que solo buscar ver el sol
Pintarse la cara color esperanza
tentar al futuro con el corazn
Saber que se puede…
Querer que se pueda…
Pintarse la cara color esperanza
tentar al futuro con el corazn
Saber que se puede querer que se pueda
quitarse los miedos, sacarlos afuera
pintarse la cara color esperanza
tentar al futuro con el corazn
Saber que se puede (saber que se puede, que puedes intentar)
Querer que se pueda (querer que se pueda)
Pintarse la cara color esperanza
Tentar al futuro con el corazon..

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Ed_aveK__D4

Tomorrow everything will be okay, I tell to myself every morning, one day I might start believing it…

How sad is the world that we live in, where some of us have so many and in the same city a lot of poorness and homeless people fighting each day against hunger and a place to stay.

Every child in this world must be able to have a home with people that cares about him/her, this is not right, is not fair…

At least for today, I felt that I had something to give, my problems seemed nothing compared to theirs,  it was comforting  to know that with a few hours of my time, along with other people, we can help to change kids lives in so many ways, give hope and a little bit of love.

Looking forward for next week.

(International Volunteer Day – December 5th)

Somewhere over the rainbow
Way up high,
And the dreams that you’ve dreamed of
Once in a lullaby.

Somewhere over the rainbow
Bluebirds fly,
And the dreams that you’ve dreamed of
Dreams really do come true.

Someday i’ll wish upon a star
And wake up where the clouds are far
Behind me.
Where troubles melts like lemon drops
Away above the chimney tops
That’s where you’ll find me.

Somewhere over the rainbow
Bluebirds fly.
And the dreams that you dare to..
Oh why, oh why can’t i?

Well, i see
Trees of green and red roses too,
I’ll watch them bloom for me and you
And i think to myself,
What a wonderful world.

Well i see,
Skies of blues and, clouds of white,
And the brightness of day, i like the dark
And i think to myself,
What a wonderful world.

The colors of the rainbow so pretty in the sky
Are also on the faces of people passing by
I see friends shaking hands saying how do you do
They’re really saying i… I love you.

I hear babies cry, i watch them grow
They’ll learn much more than really know
And i think to myself
What a wonderful world.

Someday i’ll wish upon a star
And wake up where the clouds are far
Behind me.
Where troubles melt like lemon drops
Away above the chimney tops
That’s where you’ll find me.

Somewhere over the rainbow
Way up high,
And the dreams that you dare to
Oh why, oh why can’t i?

Tomorrow everything will be okay…

Te extraño mas que nunca y no se que hacer
despierto y de recuerdo mal amanecer
espera otro dia por vivir sin ti
el espejo no miente me veo tan diferente
me haces falta tu

La gente pasa y pasa siempre van y van
el ritmo de la vida me parece mal
era tan diferente cuando estabas tu
si que era diferente cuando estabas tu

No hay nada mas dificil que vivir sin ti
sufriendo en la espera de verte llegar
el frio de mi cuerpo pregunta por ti
y no se donde estas
si no te hubieras ido seria tan feliz

No hay nada mas dificil que vivir sin ti
sufriendo en la espera de verte llegar
el frio de mi cuerpo pregunta por ti
y no se donde estas
si no te hubieras ido seria tan feliz

La gente pasa y pasa siempre van y van
el ritmo de la vida me parece mal
era tan diferente cuando estabas tu
si que era diferente cuando estabas tu

No hay nada mas dificil que vivir sin ti
sufriendo en la espera de verte llegar
el frio de mi cuerpo pregunta por ti
y no se donde estas
si no te hubieras ido seria tan feliz

I finished reading the books I had at home,

- Second Nature (Had mixed feelings while reading this book, loved the story, but some scenes where just not matching)

- Mentiras fundamentales de la Iglesia Catolica (most the things not new but with different perspective)

- Time traveler’s wife (love story with a not so happy ending…)

- Eleven Minutes (very psychological…)

- Wicked: The Life and Times of the Wicked Witch of the West (one of the best books I’ve ever read, I will definitely go to the musical next year )

To read

- The other side of Paradise: A memoir

-When the Buck Stops With You: Harry S. Truman on Leadership

-????

I’ll have to give a look to the new books out there, didn’t expect to finish so soon the ones I had.

April 2009 – I moved to Miami for work in my birthday, people from my new company welcomed me with open arms and joy, everything was so different, weather hot, feels like I can’t breathe at times, humid, very humid.

May 2009 – Learning a lot of things from the new job, got an apartment in a quiet and safe area, close to the beach, water is blue and sand is white, there are palms everywhere and everyone speaks spanish, rich in latin diversity (guatemala, venezuela, colombia, peru, argentina, cuba, puerto rico,…)

June 2009 – Things remain the same, nothing too new, still at the beginning of the learning curve and missing my friends and family everyday more and more.

July 2009 – I made my very first new friend, and went for the first time to see “Grease” musical…

August 2009 –  August was a roller coaster of emotions in my love life, between past and present…  complicating things as usual…

September 2009- Love life still in the roller coaster, I visited for the first time Key West, Florida a small island in South Florida, a beautiful place, and went to Mexico and to LA to visit my family and friends, can’t believe how big my niece and nephew are… I got a new laptop!..

October 2009 – Six months now in the new city… Halloween spirit is not in me this year. work is going way much better than last month, I joined a non-profit organization for homeless kids in Miami, started swimming and reading again, which helps me relax, my love life a mess (lost my soul mate and my best friend at the same time), trying not to look back, feeling sad and lost most of the days… time will help and better days will come …  (I miss you so much … “cause everything’s easier when you’re beside me, come back and find me. cause I feel alone…”)

“Throw Me A Rope”
I want you between me and the feeling I get when I miss you
But everything here is telling me I should be fine
So why is it so, above as below,
That I’m missing you every time

I got used to you whispering things to me into the evening
We followed the sun and its colours and left this world
It seems to me that I’m definitely
Hearing the best that I’ve heard

So throw me a rope to hold me in place
Show me a clock for counting my days down
Cause everything’s easier when you’re beside me
Come back and find me
Cause I feel alone

And whenever you go it’s like holding my breath underwater
I have to admit that I kind of like it when I do
Oh but I’ve got to be unconditionally
Unafraid of my days without you

So throw me a rope to hold me in place
Show me a clock for counting my days down
Cause everything’s easier when you’re beside me
Come back and find me
Whenever I’m falling you’re always behind me
Come back and find me
Cause everything’s easier when you’re beside me
Come back and find me
Cause I feel alone

Sink with the tide
Rescue me if you like
I’ll be leaving it all up to you
Think how we tried
It’s o.k. to be lied to
As long as it’s only by you

People say to me it’s best that we’ve parted
‘Cause you know I’m better alone
Don’t explain to me how you’re so broken hearted
I’m too busy mending my own

Ending each night with such honest goodbyes
Such honest goodbyes for the last time
Honest goodbyes only work once or twice
They work once or twice
Then the rest must be lies

Late ever night the colours fade from the sky
And the music is gone from the moon
Standing in line for what used to be mine
What use is the rhyme with no tune

People say to me it’s best that we’ve parted
And nothing is carved out in stone
It’s such a shame how we’re back where we started
It’s late now and time that we go

Ending each night with such honest goodbyes
Such honest goodbyes for the last time
Honest goodbyes only work once or twice
They work once or twice
Then the rest must be lies
The rest must be lies
The rest must be lies
The rest must be lies
The rest must be lies
The rest must be lies
The rest must be lies
The rest must be lies

Yo te debo tanto
tanto amor que ahora te regalo mi resignacion
se que tu me amaste yo pude sentirlo
quiero descansar en tu perdon
voy hacer de cuenta que nunca te fuiste
que has ido de viaje y nada mas
y con tu recuerdo cuando este muy triste le hare compañia a mi soledad

Quiero que mi ausencia sean las grandes alas
con las que tu puedas emprender
ese vuelo largo de tantas escalas
y en alguna me puedas perder
yo aqui entre la nada voy hablar de todo
buscare a mi modo continuar
que hasta que los años cierren mi memoria
no me dejare de pregunatar

Donde estara mi primavera
donde se me ha escondido el sol
que mi jardin olvido
que el alma me marchito

Yo aqui entre la nada voy hablar de todo
buscare a mi modo continuar
y hasta que los años cierre mi memoria
no me dejare de preguntar

Donde estara mi primavera
donde se me ha escondido el sol
que mi jardin olvido
que el alma me marchito
que el alma me marchito

Hoy me pregunté
por qué el final
de nuestra historia es triste
si lo que senti fue tan real
y nunca lo creiste.

Y saber de que sirvió lastimarse asi
yo sé muy bien
dijiste cosas que sabes
no son verdad
y aunque ya no estas
no olvidaré
tus marcas quedaran.

Sé que ya no volveras
Sé que muy lejos estas
que buscas otro lugar
sin mirar hacia atras

Sé que alguna vez
te encontraré y sera extraño verte
sé que el tiempo es una señal
y una respuesta a todo y dira
si aquel dolor
que nos hizo mal, nos hizo bien
fue parte de crecer.

Sé que ya no volveras
Sé que muy lejos estas
y espero que alguna vez
puedas ver que te amé.

Hoy me pregunté
por que el final
de nuestra historia es triste
y si alguna vez te encontraré
si sera bueno verte.

Y saber si esta canción
solo es el adiós que se llevó
lo bueno de este amor.

Sé que ya no volveras
sé que muy lejos estas
que buscas otro lugar
sin mirar hacia atras.

Cuanto me cuesta aceptar
que no pudimos ni hablar
y espero que alguna vez
puedas ver que te amé, que te amé.

“Boulevard Of Broken Dreams”

I walk a lonely road
The only one that I have ever known
Don’t know where it goes
But it’s home to me and I walk alone

I walk this empty street
On the Boulevard of Broken Dreams
Where the city sleeps
and I’m the only one and I walk alone

I walk alone
I walk alone

I walk alone
I walk a…

My shadow’s the only one that walks beside me
My shallow heart’s the only thing that’s beating
Sometimes I wish someone out there will find me
‘Til then I walk alone

Ah-ah, Ah-ah, Ah-ah, Aaah-ah,
Ah-ah, Ah-ah, Ah-ah

I’m walking down the line
That divides me somewhere in my mind
On the border line
Of the edge and where I walk alone

Read between the lines
What’s fucked up and everything’s alright
Check my vital signs
To know I’m still alive and I walk alone

I walk alone
I walk alone

I walk alone
I walk a…

My shadow’s the only one that walks beside me
My shallow heart’s the only thing that’s beating
Sometimes I wish someone out there will find me
‘Til then I walk alone

Ah-ah, Ah-ah, Ah-ah, Aaah-ah
Ah-ah, Ah-ah

I walk alone
I walk a…

I walk this empty street
On the Boulevard of Broken Dreams
Where the city sleeps
And I’m the only one and I walk a…

My shadow’s the only one that walks beside me
My shallow heart’s the only thing that’s beating
Sometimes I wish someone out there will find me
‘Til then I walk alone…

Hola mi amor
se que cambiaste tu numero de telefono
y que cambiaste hasta el color de tu pelo
porque empiezas una nueva vida sin mi
sabes amor, deseo que encuentres toda la felicidad
que yo soaba poder darte
no lo logre, perdoname

Se que te marchaste sin saber
sin escuchar, sin comprender
que hay una daga envenenada aqui en mi pecho
el mal ya esta hecho.. ahora

Se que no merezco tu perdon
que lastime tu corazon
hoy me averguenzo fui el motivo de tu llanto
queriendote tanto… pues
te amo, te amo
soy un idiota te perdi, pero te amo
te amo, te amo
soy un idiota te perdi, pero te amo

Hablado:
No, no puedo exigir que me perdones
mis errores son graves y es muy duro
camine por la senda equivocada
cuando me diste amor, ese amor puro
hoy no sirven de nada mis pregones
cuando quise volver ya era muy tarde
camine por la senda equivocada
y te hice llorar, soy un cobarde

Se que otro amor encontraras
que te de luz, que te de paz
que te de todo lo que yo no supe darte
quisiera abrazarte, pero
se que no merezco tu perdon
que lastime tu corazon
y hoy naufrago en este mar de tu abandono
ni yo me perdono…. y

Te amo, te amo
soy un idiota te perdi, pero te amo
te amo, te amo
soy un idiota te perdi pero te amo
te amo, te amo
Soy un idiota te perdi,
pero te amo

It is incredible how things can change from one day to another, last week I was feeling like I was happy and this one I feel a very deep pain inside my soul and my heart.

Hope better days come, time will help and evertyhing will be ok eventually.

If You’re Not The One
Songwriters: Bedingfield, Daniel;

If you’re not the one, then why does my soul feel glad today?
If you’re not the one, then why does my hand fit yours this way?
If you are not mine, then why does your heart return my call?
If you you are not mine, would I have the strength to stand at all?

I never know what the future brings
But I know you’re here with me now
We’ll make it through and I hope
You are the one I share my life with

I don’t wanna run away but I can’t take it, I don’t understand
If I’m not made for you, then why does my heart tell me that I am?
Is there anyway that I can stay in your arms?

If I don’t need you, then why am I crying on my bed?
If I don’t need you, then why does your name resound in my head?
If you’re not for me, then why does this distance name my life?
If you’re not for me, then why do I dream of you as my wife?

I don’t know why you’re so far away
But I know that this much is true
We’ll make it through and I hope
You are the one I share my life with

And I wish that you could be the one I die with
And I pray that you’re the one I build my home with
I hope I love you all my life

I don’t wanna run away but I can’t take it, I don’t understand
If I’m not made for you, then why does my heart tell me that I am?
Is there anyway that I can stay in your arms?

‘Cause I miss your body and soul so strong
That it takes my breath away
And I breath you into my heart
And I pray for the strength to stand today

‘Cause I love you whether it’s wrong or right
And though I can’t be with you tonight
And though my heart is by your side

I don’t wanna run away but I can’t take it, I don’t understand
If I’m not made for you, then why does my heart tell me that I am?
Is there anyway that I can stay in your arms?

I have 4 months and 4 days in the new city and things have been good, people is awesome. My new co-workers are really cool, everyone speaks spanish wich makes me feel more comfortable, since I got here they made me feel like I had a second family over here.

Even though, (what would I be if I didn’t have anything to complain about right?),  these months in the new city and adjusting had not been the best ones in my life, it is true that I have poeple from work over here that cares about me, I miss my family a lot, I hate being alone and it is hard to meet new people to hang out with.

Now that I’ve said my complains, here is the bright side Today is the first day in many that I am not feeling lonely being by own in Miami, it is cool to feel this way after some months. I am doing some housework, painting the apartment and I will find some furniture for my livingroom. This place looks so different with a little bit of paint.

Got myself a comfty chair, a rug to put beneath the table that I love!, chairs match perfectly with the colors on the walls and probably will soon get Wii and some games.

Hope days continue this way, feel like hell became a paradise somehow.

Mienteme con un beso que parezca de amor…

There has been changes in my life recently… I changed my job with it, my residency I moved from LA to Miami. which it is a completely different place, I have been here for almost 3 months now and I haven’t find my comfortable zone yet, work is different, people is different and will have to adapt sooner or later, don’t know how long will be here but I hope it’s enough, enough for what? I don’t know … yet.

He renunciado a ti, definitivamente
he renunciado a ti, y esta vez para siempre
Te habras fijado que no te busco
que pasa el tiempo y no voy por tu casa.
que no me ves por los sitios que pasas
he renunciado a ti
he renunciado a ti.

Porque es pura fantasia nuestro amor
ilusiones que se borran con el tiempo
porque es tanta la distancia entre los dos
que es dificil que podamos comprendernos.

He renunciado a ti, como hace el mendigo
ante el juguete caro, que llevaria a su hijo
como las aves a las estrellas
como renuncia a ser flor lo que es hierba
y cualquier hombre a volver a ser ninio
he renunciado a ti
he renunciado a ti.

Has been a long time since the last time I wrote here. A lot of things have happened, but I will list the ones that I remember for now.

November 2008, went to Las Vegas for the first time with my sister, our first trip together by ourselves, it was good times, had coffee from every hotel we visited.

December 2008, went home for two weeks for the holidays, had a reunion with university colleagues.

January 2009, my first anniversary in LA, I’ve realized how much I have grown in the past year and I was surprisingly happy to be back to my apartment. I stopped resisting to glasses. Trying to go to bellydance classes.

February 2009, went to Las Vegas for my second time to celebrate one of my friends birthday, saw snow for the first time!, said goodbye to some friends that moved on, took myself the decision to move on, seek for new adventures in other cities. Went to my frist yoga class, which is hard.

March 2009, understanding slowly that everyone eventually will move on, even me, and that we have to quick adapt to new environments and people.

This year is looking good.

I celebrated my first halloween in the US, it is a huge celebration over here, so I decided to dress up even for work.

I don’t wanna talk
About things we’ve gone through
Though it’s hurting me
Now it’s history
I’ve played all my cards
And that’s what you’ve done too
Nothing more to say
No more ace to play

The winner takes it all
The loser standing small
Beside the victory
That’s her destiny

I was in your arms
Thinking I belonged there
I figured it made sense
Building me a fence
Building me a home
Thinking I’d be strong there
But I was a fool
Playing by the rules

The gods may throw a dice
Their minds as cold as ice
And someone way down here
Loses someone dear

The winner takes it all
The loser has to fall
It’s simple and it’s plain
Why should I complain?

But tell me does she kiss
Like I used to kiss you?
Does it feel the same
When she calls your name?
Somewhere deep inside
You must know I miss you
But what can I say?
Rules must be obeyed

The judges will decide
The likes of me abide
Spectators of the show
Always staying low
The game is on again
A lover or a friend
A big thing or a small
The winner takes it all

I don’t wanna talk
‘Cause it makes me feel sad
And I understand
You’ve come to shake my hand
I apologize
If it makes you feel bad
Seeing me so tense
No self-confidence
But you see

The winner takes it all
The winner takes it all

The game is on again
A lover or a friend
A big thing or a small
The winner takes it all
The winner takes it all

- I loved it Definately will see it again!!!.